This episode made me with even more questions and I was particulary intrigued by the dreams each character had and the relation between Patty's life and Angela's life.
I mean, that men in Patty's dream (her ex boyfriend), he seemed much like Jordan (considering all the things she said about him during the episode). Another possible significant hint about him being used as a reference to Jordan, is how Patty is waiting for the guy, then someone knocks the door and who appears is Jordan.
On Patty's conversation with her ex (when he calls to explain why he didn't show up), it kinda shows that he changed and he's now more responsible and mature (considering the driving thing - you guys will know what I mean). Patty tells about this to Jordan and Jordan say "how ironic". This might be a sign that Jordan is changing... he didn't knew what 'ironic' was but he learned and now is using this word. Also remember how Jordan changed some of his attitudes on the previews episodes. He accepted taking tutoring class and he seems involved in the class and really wanting to learn. Plus he really seems like he wants to fix his "unforgivable mistake" and considering the fact that he used to be a very "whatever happens, happens" type of guy (the type that would simply leave things the way it is and wouldn't care much about it), it's a big change. So it seems like Jordan wants to improve in order (maybe) to catch up, connect, or
even better, communicate with Angela.
So back to Patty, she ended marrying Graham, but their marriage is kinda 'warm', they never have scandalous fights, but at the same time they aren't 100% satisfied with their life as a couple. They haven't betrayed each other (yet) but seems like Graham noticed a sort of "chemistry" between him and his restaurant girl (I forgot her name). And Patty, want's to make things right in her marriage but she noticed their lack of "chemistry" these days and she seemed a bit excited to meet again her ex boyfriend (maybe more to see Graham's reaction, to see if he would stay jelous).
Anyway, if we take the similarities between the 2 guys in Patty's life and the 2 guys in Angela's life, would this mean something?
Like, would this mean that if Angela ended with Brian, she would end having a "warm" relationship with him. And have the same lack of chemistry after some years together? Or would it mean that Jordan although remaining the same Jordan, would change in a good way, learn from his mistakes and become more mature and with the years (and his commitment to trying to improve) be able to communicate with Angela more? Or would Jordan remain the same and Brian be her best option?
If you notice...
-Jordan has the chemistry with Angela. The chemistry that lacks in the relationship between Patty and Graham. We don't know if Brian would have that kinda of chemistry with Angela. But on the last episode, Angela seems to see Brian in a less harsh way than she used to.
-Brian and Jordan both have trouble in communicating their feelings for Angela. But Brian is sensitive in a way similar to Angela so maybe he would understand feelings more than Jordan.
Graham seems to have the low points of Jordan and Brian:
he doesn't know how to communicate with his wife and he lost the chemistry with her.
Anyway, about the meaning of some of the dreams:
Patty's Dream - she doesn't want to face a divorce but on the other side there's temptation (symbolized by her ex). So Graham has his temptation (the restaurant women) so would in this dream mean that Patty herself is willing for a temptation?
Angela's Dream - She tries to talk with Jordan (which surprisingly appear in one moment beside Graham), but he doesn't seem to be affected by her yelling. So in her dream he's not connecting with her.
Jordan's Dream - His dream is the opposite of Angela's. He dreams he's actually being able to communicate with Angela.
I believe that in real life, dreams in a general way reveal some hidden thoughts, desires and sometimes even what's going to happen.So would these dreams reveal some hints about the fate of the characters?
Anyway,
I ended this episode with more questions than answers. I guess we all did...
I do like Brian but I wouldn't like to see Angela and Jordan breaking up. Watching 'My So-Called Life' make the viewer (specially, us female viewers) as obsessed with Jordan as Angela. So I do cheer for Jordan becoming a bit more mature and also more able to express his feelings, this would make his relationship with Angela even more intense and more likely to last a long time. But, at the same time I think...would this happen in real life? Like...would the boys like Jordan be able to change like this? If no, would this mean that Jordan and Angela's relationship be just a passing teen-romance that would last only until Angela realize they'll never be able to 'communicate' in the same way? And would this mean Brian is the right guy for her? He for sure is a nice guy, but Angela doesn't like him in a 'boyfriend' way. And sometimes in real life we are surrounded by boys like Brian, that seem to be the perfect type of boy to marry and spend the life together, and so "perfect" gentlemen, and so responsibles that although we try to like them in other way (besides the "friend" way) we can't. We try to like the Brian type but in the end we just can't, he'll always be the "friend" or "brother like" type.
I guess all these questions and the fact that "My so-called life" ended in this way that doesn't gives us answers of the fates of the characters makes it special. Because just like life we never know what will happen next and there are many paths that life can take, but these paths are always a surprise.
PS: Sorry for the long and confusing post, I didn't planned much what I was going to write so that's why the ideas and opinions are all not organized.